Saturday, November 05, 2011

Time to grow up

As most of you know, I have had some struggles lately. It's not just my health, but it's my mindset. I've allowed a multitude of things to become handy excuses for not paying better attention. First was the play -- "oh, I don't have time to do (this), so I'll do (that) instead." Then it was something else, and something else, and the idea of being able to indulge a little in certain things.

I even fell back into the trap sometimes after dinner of thinking, "I've blown it for today, I'll start fresh tomorrow, but in the meantime....." and just not caring. I have come too far not to care. I don't like the direction things are moving. I don't like feeling this yucky about myself and my life and my weight and my (lack of) progress -- actually, a regress. So what to do?

I'm taking the advice that a very wise woman gave me: if you don't like your life, change it. And I'm also taking up the Serenity Prayer to apply to this situation. There are things I cannot change -- I'm older, I have some health issues going on. So I accept them and leave it as is. There are things I can change -- the choices I make for what to eat, how much to eat, when to workout, what to do in a workout. I have the wisdom to know the difference, but I need a daily reminder that I am capable, that I am worth the effort, that I am a success and I need to constantly refine and hone that success -- to build on it.

And to faithful readers, I apologize for my failings. Just proof that I'm human and if it can happen to me, it can happen to anyone. If nothing else, maybe this will be inspiration for others to keep going, to keep trying, and to keep your guard up!


Now, looking for a very satisfying meal idea? One of the better choices that I made several times this summer and fall is Ruby Tuesday's Spaghetti Squash Marinara. If I did the calculations right, the dinner portion is 5 PP, and the lunch portion is 3. It's a plate full of spaghetti squash, topped with marinara sauce and sauteed zucchini. It is absolutely yummy, and paired with a good tossed salad from the salad bar, it is an extremely filling meal.

So tonight at home, I had a spaghetti squash that was calling my name. I halved it, roasted it at 450 for 50 minutes, and scooped out the flesh (okay, more "fork-ed" it out in order to get it in the strands). I set aside a one-cup serving, then added a half-cup of arribiata sauce for a kick. Divine. Just awesome. And best of all? 2 PPV.

And I still have enough squash to make lunch tomorrow. YAHOO!!!!

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