Weighty Matters

Tonight's weigh-in was good --- another 1.8 pounds gone, for a total of 94.2 pounds lighter. Tonight's topic was about who inspires us. I have had lots of people tell me that I am inspiring to them -- and I do appreciate it so much. But it made me wonder who inspired me -- who have I admired and looked up to as I've been on this journey? This week, I'm going to think more about this question. And write on it when I can.

Another 1.6 down, for a total of 92.4 overall in 46 weeks. Holy crapola. I can barely believe it!!!!

(Thanks, David Bowie). I've worn plus sizes since my teens. But over time, I even went beyond those into what is now known as "extended plus" .... you can't find those in regular department stores or most clothing stores. They can be found in specialty stores: Avenue, Catherine's, for a while Lane Bryant, and so forth. For a long time, I got my clothes from a local re-distribution outlet for mall stores/catalog/outlet wear. Most of the clothing was from the previous year's catalog. That never bothered me, because I didn't care if it was a year old or not. It was inexpensive and (more importantly) in my size. But then it got to the point that their selection started to be kind of junky, especially in those larger sizes. Awful knits and ugly stuff. Then it was back to the more expensive specialty shops. It was then that I learned how to shop clearance areas for the best stuff my money could buy. As long as it fit and was marked down at least fairly reasonabl...

Tonight's weigh-in: -1.4 pounds. Total since May 11: -90.8 pounds. Only 9.2 pounds to go until 100....... I never imagined I would get here, and have fun doing it. I still have a long way to go, to be certain. But I've made it this far. I can't -- won't -- stop now.

Regular readers of my main blog (Meanderings and Musings) may remember me speaking last January about the passing of my childhood friend Tee from breast cancer. One of the things that I have vowed I will do this year is walk in the Race for the Cure in September in her memory, and in honor of my aunt (who is a 15+ year survivor of breast cancer). Today would have been Tee's 38th birthday. I am still pissed about that. Breast cancer should not rob a husband of his wife, two children of their mother, two parents of yet another child (one of Tee's brother had passed away a few years earlier). But tonight, we celebrated my father's birthday (from last Tuesday) and my brother's (this coming Monday) with dinner at our town's Greek/Italian restaurant. It's only about 2, maybe 2-1/2 blocks from the house, on the southernish edge of the business district. At dinner, my brother and I spoke of another nearby place which had been a convenience store when we were kids. It...

and just a half-pound from 90 pounds. I never imagined that 10 months ago, I would be 90 pounds lighter. I never imagined that I could enjoy the process as much as I have. I marvel at the way I am changing .... slowly and imperceptibly at times, but then I see it and go "When did THAT happen?" I know that I have a long way to go, but I can't wait to see how it's all going to turn out!

Last week ... well, all this past week ... has been weird. Last Thursday, when I wrote my post, I had had a very bad afternoon at work. I honestly believe part of my gain was due less to a bad day of eating or (in my case) not eating enough -- and more to the emotional weight. Emotions carry weight; I know that can never be proven, but I believe it. Guilt, stress, sadness -- all weighty emotions. Anyway, this week, I'm back on track. I lost 2.8 --- all that I'd gained last week and 2 more pounds, and am now down a total of 88.4 pounds! That's seventeen 5-pound bags of sugar (and then some). Five rather large Thanksgiving turkeys (and a small turkey breast). About 10 gallons of milk. I was discussing this with a coworker today -- she has lost a lot of weight over the years and is one of my cheerleaders. We were talking about it and how much more I have to go. I still have a long way to go, but I am getting there and have come so much further than I ever expected. I am proud...